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August 29, 2017 / edwardonbebop

Video games

Digging through piles of old video games cartridges
Digging through history of electronic devices
I was not only looking for a past
But also for a present,
And possible

I was looking for a model.
I want to be this man who sweats awesomeness,
I want to be this woman soft as a lover
But stronger than an army,
I want to be able to change and become whoever I want.

I want a destiny that I can break
With my own fists
To build a new one.

I want an unsolvable puzzle
That I would solve.

I want an epic medieval adventure
Set in a modern world.

I want to write my history,
No, many histories,
In symbols,
In pictures like
Ancient mosaics of pixels,
In frustrations
and laughs
In silence
and music
In contemplation
and action
In peace and wars
(but mostly peace)
In wisdom and in bizarre
(but mostly bizarre because
Wisdom doesn’t mean anything

I do not want an escape
But a destination
Even if temporary.

I want to be good at something.
No, I want to be a genius at something.

I want a funky-electro festival playing while
I save the world by racing on (eco-friendly) machines
Flying at 1224 +1 kilometers per hour.

I want a concert of a classical orchestra playing while
I try to fix the Andromeda constellation
In the remote confines of the Universe
Without anyone knowing.

August 18, 2017 / edwardonbebop

The message

A butterfly kiss on the cheek
Because she likes me.

(She is so sweet)

A second kiss on my cheek
Because she wants
To make sure I get the message
And butterflies are sensitive.

(She is beautiful)

Her delicate hands around my face
The softest kiss on my lips
Because my face probably shows
That I am still not getting her message clearly.

(Dumbed. Warmth. I think I am in love)

July 25, 2017 / edwardonbebop

Time confusion

The green tranquility of a cup of tea,
Resonates with the authentic comfort of the wooden structure.

My place, my time.

The half-open paper screens
Let a small breeze in,
Pushing endless white and grey clouds in
And out.

The house is full of empty,
Filled with serenity and love,

Remote but not alone.

Empty but not hollow.

Filled with nothing else than
And my love of the world
My love for my relatives
My love for you.
I feel more complete a full than ever.

The cup empty.
For a brief moment I stay here
At the crossroads of what I may want
And what I am scared to leave.

I let the threads of time pass through me.
Sweet anachronisms.

Or maybe I am the anachronism.

July 4, 2017 / edwardonbebop

How long

How long does

“too soon” last ?

July 3, 2017 / edwardonbebop


I regressed
To the point that
I don’t know the words
That could express how I feel.

I feel dumb,
So much that
I don’t even know
My name.

I am a nobody.

I feel detached,
So remote, that it scares me to death.
My body doesn’t anchor me
Here below.

I could try
To overcome all that
But I would be building
New lies to cover up for

That thing

I hate to acknowledge,
I fear to admit has come back.

However I won’t lie to myself.
It is just me and my feelings now,
In an honest face-to-face,
A showdown maybe.

July 1, 2017 / edwardonbebop

Another other design

My home was rickety
So I ruined it
And dug deep down
To the foundations
In order to destroy them.

I had found a more secure structure
For my new foundations.
With vim had I started
The new construction work
And had been making good progress.

Then the Architect addressed me
In the most sibylline way,
Sparkling doubt.
I came to a stop
And looked at what I had built.

Suddenly the whole structure
Made no sense to me,
Like pieces of a puzzle
Arranged in an unintended way
Giving illusion of completeness
As it could in truth
Be even more fragile than before.

I am about to take it all down,
All my newly accomplished work,
But I can’t resolve to do so,
As I have no new design
For my foundations.
So I sit down in the dirt
And cry.

June 27, 2017 / edwardonbebop

The other other side

I was going my way,
It was a tough quest
But I was confident
That it would take me
To my destination.

Then I hit a wall.

Bewildered I began to wonder,
On what side of the wall
Am I supposed to be ?

On what side of the wall
Was I before anyway ?

On what side of the wall
May I meet my true self ?