I think the pills I have been taking for a little more than 2 weeks now are beginning to take effect.
The feeling is weird, also I don’t know what part of it is due to the medicines and what part of it may be the result of my personal reflections about myself.
Today I feel less depressed. I also feel more “distant” to things. I cannot come with a better word than things as it includes almost every component of my life: work, relationships, future.
It is almost as if I did not care anymore (or less) about what may happen.
There is also a kind of euphoria. It started last Saturday evening or maybe the day after. Things that make me laugh appear to be even funnier as expected. It is a strange feeling and I don’t really know how to express it. Drunkness may be a good approximation (although I am absolutely not allowed to drink while being under treatment), but without the stomach ache. I also feel a little less able to keep my own balance. I may look funny when I walk in the street !
Now may be the time I will screw things up (sorry for the language) or finally stop acting and thinking weird.